Monday, June 20, 2016

Rock 'n Roll Half 2016!


On Saturday, June 18, I ran the Rock 'n Roll Seattle Half Marathon.  I had never run a Rock 'n Roll series race before, and I was very impressed!  They know how to put on a well-organized, fun race.  And check out the sweet medal!  

On Friday, I rode up to Seattle with my running buddies Gina, Christine, and Danika.  We hit up the race expo and bought a few things, as well as scored a bunch of free goodies.  But the absolute highlight, for me, was meeting Jared Ward!!!  He is a fellow BYU graduate and Mormon, and he'll be competing in the Olympics this summer in the marathon.  He was very friendly and gracious, and I totally geeked out over getting to shake his hand and take pictures with him.  He also ran the half marathon on Saturday, and won easily.  



I was told to look tough: "Huh?"



Even though I look rather dumb, this is my favorite one.  Jared Ward thinks I'm tough!  :)


Christine, Danika, Jared, me, and Gina


I asked for a picture with this colorfully-dressed man because I got a kick out of his outfit...


...and then he surprised me with a kiss!  It's a horrific picture of me, but it makes me laugh.  Enjoy!  


A glimpse of part of the expo.

After we graced the expo with our presence, we checked into our hotel, the downtown La Quinta.  I loved hanging out there with three of my favorite people, watching cable (we cancelled ours recently, and I'm having withdrawals!), and not having to worry about taking care of anyone else besides myself.  When dinnertime rolled around, we walked to Buca di Beppo and had a seriously delicious meal!  Pasta and cheesy garlic bread.  It was heavenly!  


I didn't sleep very well Friday night, thanks to nerves.  5:20 a.m. came waaaayyy too early, but excitement and anxiety combined to wake me up.  I began training for this race in April, my goal being to break the two-hour mark.  My previous half marathon PR was 2:04, which I ran at the Geoduck Half Marathon in February.  I thought that I had a good chance of achieving my goal, but I was filled with doubt, too.  What if I hadn't trained hard enough?  It was a cool feeling, though, to know that I was just about to find out what I could achieve.  


Danika and I think we both look like cancer patients...  :)



On the way to the start line, we stopped for a pic at this iconic landmark...



The race began right next to the Space Needle!  

After a long wait in line to use the bathroom, we made our way to the corrals, and slowly moved our way up to the starting line.  And then we were off!  I had made a playlist for my iPod specifically for this race, and "Kryptonite" by Three Doors Down was the first song.  I was feeling so happy, excited, pumped, and a little scared at that point.  The first few miles, I had a hard time keeping myself from going too fast.  But eventually, I settled into a good rhythm, and the miles started to fly by.  


Running on the Viaduct, the ocean to my right.  

The weather was perfect, too.  It was in the high 50s, so I wasn't too hot, and the rain held off until right after I finished the race.  

Because it's a Rock 'n Roll race, there were several musical groups performing along the race route.  There were a few rock groups, a Taiko drumming group, and even a mariachi band.  Quite cool.  

At each mile marker, I'd compare my pace to where I needed to be in order to reach my goal, and I was always ahead of where I needed to be by around two minutes.  That was the best feeling!  Especially as I went farther and farther.  But it was also sobering knowing how far I had to go, and that there were some hills coming, and that I was already tired trying to maintain that pace.  Miles 10 and 11 were the worst.  I felt so tired, and I wondered if I'd be able to sustain my pace.  I had to give myself lots of pep talks!  Once I hit mile 12, though, I started to get so emotional.  I knew that I'd be able to destroy my goal (as long as I didn't collapse, or something), and it felt SO AMAZING knowing that I had done it.  All my hard work of the last several weeks (and months, really) had completely paid off.  I had really been worried that all my struggles with overeating would prevent me from reaching my goal.  I knew that I'd been abusing my poor body, and I was scared that the toll would prevent me from being able to go as fast as I wanted to.  So, the relief and happiness I felt was HUGE.  I teared up a bit and ran one of the happiest 1.1 miles of my life.  I was wrecked once I crossed the finish line, but I couldn't stop smiling.  


This was my view right after I hit mile 12.  


SO HAPPY!!!


Danika and I at the finish line!  


I was so grateful for the aluminum (?) blanket/wrap.  As soon as I finished, the rain and wind picked up, and I was freezing!  


The race ended at CenturyLink field, where the Seahawks play.  


After the race, we walked a couple of miles back to our hotel.  On the way, we found this little garden, complete with a beautiful waterfall!  As you can see, Christina and Gina have excellent taste in skirts.  

We walked through Pike Place Market a bit, too, on our way back to the hotel.  

I am still riding my post-race high, and trying to figure out what my next goal will be?  A marathon?  A 1:50 half marathon?  Both?  I'll keep you posted.  :)

Thanks for reading!  

Wednesday, June 8, 2016

Just Beachy

On Sunday, we were able to go to Cannon Beach, Oregon.  Some of our best friends from Alaska were vacationing there, and spending time with them was wonderful!  We've missed them so, so much!  

We began the three-hour drive as is right and good: with breakfast at McDonald's.  



And then, the driving done, we made it to the beach!  Lil' Tess loves playing in the sand and splashing in the water...



Maddie jumping in the water!

Maddie and Caroline, one of Maddie's very favorite people.  

My gorgeous Maia

The manly men!

Darling Tess

Warming up with Daddy

I love watching my babies play at the beach!



Walking around town...

One of our Cannon Beach traditions is to get treats at Bruce's Candy Kitchen.  Isn't their Jelly Belly wall beautiful?!?!

I adore their mint malt balls!  

We got to meet an adorable miniature horse, too...

He's just her size.

Beautiful views!!!

Beach selfies!  Belfies!  Belchies!  


We ate a delicious dinner at Mo's...

Some of our talented prodigy!

Post-dinner park time!  

Emily, one of the coolest people I know.  
Max, Warren, and my super man.  

We'll be back soon, Cannon!

Tuesday, June 7, 2016

Working Draft

Recently, I read the gorgeous novel, Everyone Brave is Forgiven, by Chris Cleave.  It is chock full of the most luscious, beautiful sentences, but my favorite lines were in the Author's Note after the story:

"My grandfather died while I was writing the novel -- but, as he might have remarked, it wasn't necessarily my fault.  I regret that he never saw the book.  I had finished the third draft of what turned out to be five, but I had decided to wait until the novel was perfect before I gave it to him to read.  What a fool I am.  If you will forgive the one piece of advice a writer is qualified to give: never be afraid of showing someone you love a working draft of yourself."  

I love that last line, but I would add that we shouldn't be afraid of showing anyone a working draft of ourselves.  This concept strikes me to my core.  I want to accept that I am a work-in-progress (like everyone else), and that I don't need to hide that.  I think that when we are willing to stop trying to appear "perfect", in any respect, we help others be brave enough to do the same.  And there is such peace in accepting ourselves right now, flaws and all, as enough.  As someone that is worth being seen.  And aren't those the kinds of people that we're usually the most comfortable and happy around, anyway?  

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I took this picture last Saturday morning at 5:15 a.m.  I love, love, love how light it is in the morning now when I am running!


Yesterday's run was a long six miles pushing Tess in her stroller (pushing that thing up hills is WORK!).  Afterwards, I rewarded her for her patience with time at a park near our house:  




I tried to take another selfie with Tess...she quickly ran away, instead.



Tess insisted on bringing three books from home with her on our run.  At the park, she organized them before racing off to play.

The half-mile walk home took F.O.R.E.V.E.R.  She had to stop and inspect every bug she noticed, as well as smell all the flowers.  Even the dandelions.

Showing me her toes while we waited for Maddie to finish up with Tae Kwon Do.  
















Thanks for reading!

Friday, May 27, 2016

Rough

This week has been mentally rough.  Rough, rough, rough!  As far as food is concerned, anyway.  Ugh.  The battle against my eating disorder monster continues, and he has won a few significant battles over the past couple of days.  Even though I'm really, really frustrated, I have hope.  Hope that I can return to that place of kindness that felt so amazingly good.  If it happened once, it can happen again.  So I'll keep asking, "How can I be kind to myself right now?"  And I'll try to actually DO what my body tells me to do.

One of the only times that I feel real, powerful joy lately is when I run.  It comes as a visceral, pleasant jolt that usually makes me feel like crying.  I'm so grateful that I can run!  I've only run twice this week, so far, but both runs were good, tough workouts, and just what I needed.

On Wednesday, I ran 8 miles, including speed work.  Running each interval at an 8:00/mile pace, I ran:

1.5 mile warm-up
400 m with 200 m easy jog
800 m with 400 m easy jog
1600 m with 800 m easy jog
2 x 800 m with 400 easy jog after each one
Ran until I hit 8 miles total


Me 'n my treadmill (the one trying to hug my neck) 


One of my favorite things about running is how easy it is to measure your progress.  It's tangible and measurable (unlike mothering!), whether you're talking about speed, or endurance, or both.  A month ago, the above workout would've been almost impossible, but because I've been diligent about doing my speed work, I never doubted that I could do it, and I can tell that I'm getting faster!


Leaving the gym after my Wednesday workout

This morning, I ran 6 miles on the treadmill at the gym.  I felt terrible because I binged on ice cream last night, but I needed a hard workout to remind me of who I really am.  Of what makes me happy.  And it's usually not ice cream.

After a 1 mile warm-up, I ran 2.2 miles at an 8:41 pace.  It was really hard!  I think it would've felt a lot better, and easier, if I hadn't binged the night before, but I'm proud of myself for pushing it.  It felt purifying.  I don't mean to say that I think running should be a turned into a penance for food mistakes (as that could take the joy out of it), but it makes me feel more capable, more powerful, more me.  It strips away a lot of the negative energy that my brain loves to produce.  After the 2.2 miles, I ran at a slow, easy pace for awhile, and then gradually sped back up to a 9:00 mile pace, but most of it was slower than that.


Post-run selfie...it was a sparsely populated room this morning!  


Side note: the above picture makes me so very happy.  I hate and loathe my short hair.  I desperately wish I hadn't cut it!  I miss my long hair!  So, being able to put my hair into a ponytail makes me so happy!  Proof that it's growing out!  Note all the exclamation points...this is a big deal!  :)

Second side note: I saw a Justin Bieber music video today that I really liked.  I even like the song.  To say I am ashamed is an understatement...but seriously, check out the cool video.

Another video that makes me incredibly happy is this one of a new Justin Timberlake song.  I don't know how you could watch it and not feel happier.  Plus, he is one cool dude.

A couple of days ago, my trusty Nike sports bra had to head to that big lingerie store in the sky.  I could NOT get the stink out of it.  'Twas super gross.  I ordered two new ones (Nike -- they're the best sports bras I've ever had!), and Tess thinks they are amazing!  I told her that they help me run, so she had me put one on her, and then proceeded to run up and down the hallway many times.


Speaking of Tess, her love affair with her bucket and shovel is still going strong.  Sand, wood chips, rocks, it doesn't matter.  It all goes in her bucket.  And then is dumped out.  And then goes in again.  Repeat.  I love my hard-workin' girl.













I hope you all have a wonderful weekend!  Thanks for reading!